Jun 25, 2009


it's melon, apple, aquatic, jasmine, magnolia, violet, lily of the valley, peach, apricot and musk.


the new me.

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May 15, 2009


“A good manager doesn't try to eliminate conflict; he/she tries to keep it from wasting the energies of her/his people. If you're the boss and your people fight you openly when they think that you are wrong - that's healthy.”
-- Robert Townsend 


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May 12, 2009


"When I needed you most when I needed a friend, you let me down"
-Blink 182



friendship is delicate as a glass, once broken, it can be fixed, but there will always be cracks.

when the moment was gone, let it be in the pass

remember to forgive, forget and to move on
if it may occurs again in the future, don't let your ignorance and insensitivity let your friend, down.

when that person needed you the most.


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May 4, 2009


having another phase of what so called
" a
writer's block"

perhaps it's just a time...
to read all the books at my unread bookshelf


yaaaaaaa... memperpendek daftar dosa lah...
doyan belinya, males bacanya

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Apr 30, 2009


started my debt diet program weeks ago
cut two cc... and so happy to do so
but i cannot help myself
to look at this gorgeous wedges

just to look at it
and adding it to my wish list ;-)


anyone?
anyone et all???????????????

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Apr 27, 2009

type and click


do you think before you write?

it depends
on what?
where it will be published
er.... you mean?
if it's an official e-mail, i think before it was sent. if it's an official circular, i think before i proof-read. if it's a blog entry, in my own blog, then i don't think when i write or publish.
you just type then click?
yeap.. type and click

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Apr 24, 2009

How Open Are You?


still diving from quiz to quiz...

it's kinda fun..

and surprisingly, it said that



You Are 47% Open

You are a fairly open person, but you also like to maintain your privacy.
You
definitely will tell all (okay, almost all) some parts to your closest friends...
But strangers and acquaintances only get a peek into your life.



ha-ha
you can try it at here
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Apr 23, 2009

musim


"sekarang lagi musim apa di sana?"



yang jelas belum musim duren...
tapi musim panas. cuaca yang terik mengganggu stabilitas otak dalam bekerja. pstttttt... ada musim yang lain, yang lebih seru. musim arisan, reunian,
gathering yang arrangement-nya dilakukan via facebook.

ini wabah musiman.

beberapa teman lama ikut terjangkit wabah ini. mereka mengirimkan undangan reuni, via
facebook. lagi musim katanya... ah lagi-lagi musim. berawal dari satu pesan kemudian beranak-pinak jadi puluhan lainnya. seperti banjir yang tak kunjung reda. hihihihihi

beberapa orang (termasuk saya), bukan orang yang standby melototin facebook seperti broker mantengin pegerakan harga saham. gadget juga sengaja dibatasi supaya tak tergoda untuk terus online, karena satu dan puluhan alasan tentunya.

ketika pesan di facebook tak kunjung dibalas, protes pun berdatangan. ga reply tepat waktu lah, ga ada kabarnya lah, confirm susah amat lah...lah lah lah lah

padahal, jangankan pesan... ada sembilan puluh tujuh friend requests yang belum disentuh hahahahaha

kalau sudah begitu..... tertawa!
keras dan sering.. itu yang saya lakukan.

mengapa?

karena musim, jadi harus lewat
facebook.
padahal ada fasilitas e-mail dan sms yang siap untuk diberdayakan.
khususnya untuk perempuan yang bekerja minus BB or iphone yang bisa terus SIAGA dengan facebook. lagian, kita kan satu kota loh....


musim... ah lagi-lagi musim.
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Apr 18, 2009



“The only reason why we ask other people how their weekend was

is so we can tell them about our own weekend.”

--Chuck Palahniuk


Do you agree?



Am not

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Apr 11, 2009

only fear can defeat life


"I must say a word about fear. It is life's only true opponent.
Only fear can defeat life.
"
-- Yann Martel, Life of Pi


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Apr 10, 2009


The reason death sticks so closely to life isn’t biological necessity – it’s envy.
Life is so beautiful that death has fallen in love with it...
-- Yann Martel, in Life of Pi

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Apr 6, 2009

is it our hobby?



Stanford:
Before I tell you, you have to promise not to judge.

Carrie: Do I judge?
Stanford: We all judge. That's our hobby. Some people do arts and crafts; we judge.



-Sex & The City
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Apr 5, 2009

Hari ini hari apa?



Pertanyaan untuk peri

Entah ke mana kata-kata pergi
Gambar romantis itu pudar
Rasa yang mendayu hilang

Apa mungkin rasa puisiku hilang

Seperti pohon tak berdaun di musim dingin

Tapi tak juga itu

Lebih seperti bangun pagi yang amat biasa
Dan bertanya saat tengah malam


Hari ini hari apa


Dan mencoba mencari sisa-sisa perasaan

Manusia yang dulu

Yang pernah berjalan bersama
Hingga tak kukenali lagi


Jiwa dan tubuh sedang saling mencari

Saling berputar di jalan yang sama

Tapi tak bertemu

Mungkin yang lain sedang mampir naik kereta

Atau cuma duduk di tepi trotoar

Ya,mungkin kencing di sungai sambil pura-pura mabok

Agar tak malu


Diri yang dulu, diri yang mana

Pertanyaan ini mencari dan mencoba menakar
sejauh mana telah berubah


Apakah masih bisa kukenali lagi
Ataukah sudah tersesat

Salah jalan
Atau memang jalan tak ada ujung


Atau memang ini menulis di langit biru

Sambil kepulkan awan
Membayangkan gerimis di kampung
Dan duduk bercerita dengan Mama kios yang telah ditutup


Ah, itu kan dulu

Kemarin yang telah pergi

Sedangkan yang akan datang senyum
yang pernah
Tawa yang luput

Dan, ah, kau seperti sedang mencari

Benar terasa kau seperti sendiri

Seperti peri yang terlambat pulang

Dan tak ingin pergi

Dan berdiri di pintu

Sambil bertanya

hari ini hari apa


Ah peri, apa perlu bertanya



Birmingham, 3 April 2009

By: Elcid Li, a friend, a writer and a good listener
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Apr 4, 2009

is this love?



dari awal, tidak seperti yang pertama

untuk yang pertama, di permulaan, lamaaaaaaa sekali membuka lembar demi lembar

tapi ketika sudah lebih dari lembar ke tujuh belas..
hasrat jadi tak terhentikan...
menjadi tidak sabar, rasa ingin tahu terus berkecamuk..
debaran jantung menjadi terdengar, mata tak kunjung terpejam,
kerutan menghiasi kening dan sesekali, senyuman tipis tersungging di bibir

ini yang kedua,
namun, dari lembar pertama, perasaan malas itu tak ada
yang ada keinginan yang menggebu untuk terus-menerus membukanya, cepat.. memburu.. memaksa untuk terus terjaga
ingin tahu bagaimana jadinya

seru, tegang, menyentuh..
sensasi yang ia berikan tak terputuskan

kini.......
tiba di penghujung akhir
rasanya sayang bila ia harus berakhir...
mulai membaca dengan lambat...sangat lambat..
meresapi setiap kata, memejamkan mata, memanjakan imajinasi
mungkin harus segera diakhiri
supaya bisa berpindah ke lain lagi
ke buku lain yang masih belum dibaca..*hiks*

mungkin akan membaca ulang..
berharap tidak ada detail yang terlewatkan
memanjakan rasa, walau sensasi yang ditawarkan
tidak akan pernah sama


yes, am reading this book and i think..
am so falling for it

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Apr 3, 2009

labil-mood-menular


pergi ga ya..

pergi aja deh..
ah hujan... tapi di cubicle juga dah males, dah bego...
dah keras nih rahang..

pergi ga ya...
pergi deh...

akhirnya pergi juga.. walaupun telat.. banget.. sangat telat banget dan kebangetan deh telatnya.

emang klo lagi labil, kudunya ga bole deket-deket sama orang-orang yang moodnya lagi ga bagus. soalnya.. mood itu menular, jadi sering-seringlah melakukan ritual membuang mood slash aura negatif.. biar ga ketualaran hihihihihi

mood menular? yakin lu?
yakin, pasti.. am sure

nih ya... menurut Dr. Elaine Hatfield, a psychologist at the University of Hawaii:

"Emotional contagion happens within milliseconds, so quick you can't control it, and so subtly that you're not really aware it's going on”

mili sekon boi.. cepet ga tuh..
lebih cepat dari helaan nafas dan kedipan mata

waspadalah.......waspadalah.....

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Apr 2, 2009

about human action


all human actions have one or more of these seven causes:
chance
,
nature
,
compulsion
,
habit
,
reason
,
passion
,
and
desire
.



Aristotle

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Mar 31, 2009

bukan wonderwoman



me: am a very complicated human being. sometimes, i feel so stupid, not learning from the past.

a friend:
we are only human


me:
i know. but for now, am not quite comfort with myself. like u said, we are only human. a complicated ones... and am proud of that. am not gonna change who i am just because some people wants me to. this is me, take it or leave it, a-stupid-complicated-human-being. (psttttt gw jarang ngaku klo lagi bego)


a friend: ya, kadang we just just have to admit, that we're not wonderwoman hahahaha


and once again, she made me smile
thanks.. for being nice wherever u r, that night, when i was blown away by the wind

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Mar 30, 2009

be ready and stay away



after having a wonderful wiken
without have to reply any boring text
i woke up at the wrong side of the bed, today!

my head was spinning and my right shoulder is killing me

and... so many rese people come to visit
just to test my patience

and i failed
oh yes.. i did hihihihihihi

pffffffffffffffffff
thinking of having another "hiatus" time...
since this could be a fantastic week folks..
need to speed up everything and keeping the balance at the sanity level, at the same time
guess it won't be hard... ^_^

so... be ready
and
just stay away huahahahahahha

in other words... "sana... jauh-jauh"

yes,
especially for you who made me unseal the deal


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Mar 28, 2009

was it so hard to be understood?



maybe i didn't make myself clear


when i deal with you, that means you alone
not include anyone, anything, any feeling you have in your daily life.......whatsoever

and i refuse to know every single detail
and to know anyone

and to reject any third party tool, oh yes.. i do!

was it so hard to understand?
when it comes to my private half world, i set some boundaries

so,
do i make myself clear now?

or should we unseal the deal?

and it's just too easy for me

to walk out from your time space
since my world is not your world

i repeat..
my world is not the same like yours.. am martian, remember?


and was it so damn hard to understand?
that i cannot have anyone try to enter my-so-called-private-half-world-area

like i said.......

i have got nothing to hide...
i just refuse to share



that simple and that complicated


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Mar 27, 2009

it's Friday and am working loh



“I always give 100% at work:



13% Monday

22% Tuesday

26% Wednesday

35% Thursday

4% Friday”

from http://thinkexist.com



It's Friday already?
Halah gaya..
kemarin (pas libur NYEPI), gw kira udah Jumat ha-ha
jadi masih berharap untuk ritual tidur-tidur-tidur and tidur lagi hahahahaha

ow.. i do miss my beauty-slash-beast-or-like-i-care sleep
YES darling, it's my twelve (or even more) hours sleep
yeap... kinda miss it already

a lot

hey.......dun take it wrong
am not complaining loh... (ehm)... yakin?
ow... yes, pasti, am sure...
absofuckinglutely laaaaaa
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Mar 26, 2009

no time?



deeeeeeuuuuuuuhhhhh....
yang beneran has no time, esp for LOVE ha-ha

eits,kok sok tau gini?
lah.. klo dia ada waktu
pastinya VOR akan berganti FOR la...
yukkkkkkkkk


@Pelabuhan Sunda Kelapa


biar garing asal posting
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Mar 25, 2009

hide and share


a guy:
jangan suka dipendem tuh emosi, bisa gilaaa ennttaaarrrr.

me:
i have nothing to hide, i just refuse to share. they're just too many

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Mar 24, 2009

whist list



ulang taun masih lama
tapi dah ngupdet wish list..
well, that's a spirit ha-ha


lagian... ga usah nunggu ulang taun kan, klo mo ngasih.. ya ngasih aja
hehehehe *ngarep*
buruan.. timbang ntar malah jadi 100.. sekarang masih 29 loh..
yukkkkkkkkk mari


1.oleh Remy Sylado





2.oleh Femi Adi Soempeno





3.oleh Dewi Lestari, Dinar Rahayu, Djenar Maesa Ayu, Fira basuki, Herlinatieng, dkk




4.Sintong Panjaitan
oleh Hendro Subroto




5.oleh James T. Collins




6.oleh Dewi Lestari, Dinar Rahayu, Djenar Maesa Ayu, Fira basuki, Herlinatieng, dkk




7.oleh Fira Basuki




8.oleh Femi Adi Soempeno




9.oleh Christian simamora & Windy Ariestanty




10.Perang Vietnam, Cinta, dan Jalinan Antar-generasi Prancis
oleh Antoine Audouard




11.oleh Stewart Gordon




12.oleh Paulo Coelho




13.oleh Paulo Coelho





14.oleh Langit Kresna Hariadi




15.oleh Langit Kresna Hariadi




16.oleh Langit Kresna Hariadi




17.oleh Langit Kresna Hariadi




18.oleh Hermawan Aksan




19.oleh Tasaro




20.Sepak Terjang Hui Sing Murid Perempuan Cheng Ho
oleh Tasaro




21.oleh Pramoedya Ananta Toer





22.oleh Pramoedya Ananta Toer




23.oleh Pramoedya Ananta Toer





24.oleh Pramoedya Ananta Toer





25.oleh Pramoedya Ananta Toer





26.oleh Pramoedya Ananta Toer





27.oleh Pramoedya Ananta Toer




28.oleh Pramoedya Ananta Toer
5






29.oleh Pramoedya Ananta Toer, Putu Wijaya, Nukila Amal, Keith Foulcher, Carlos Fuentes, Utuy Tatang Sontani









Mar 23, 2009

wiken story


so, watts yr wiken story?



08129xxxxxx, jiwa advonturir yang terperangkap dalam tubuh ibu RT:
Hey, met wiken. Gw lagi belajar masak neh.

08573xxxxxx, a party lover yang ga ada matinye:
Lagi bantuin temen launching graden clubnya. Ada live music, barbeque, beer, arak, wine. Kayanya bakalan seru. Psssttt.... kemaren, gw dicium lama sama pacar temen gw. Hari ini ketemu lagi, tapi ga dibahas. Gw rasa she was drunk yesterday kekekeke.


08129xxxxxx, pengusaha sapi yang lagi sepi pasaran:
Ga ngapa2in gw, di rumah aja. Maen poker di FB.

0813xxxxxx, obsesi jadi budayawan sekarang lagi nyamar jadi researcher:
Take a rest at home. Lu ke mana hari ini?

08139xxxxxx, kontraktor dengan hobi (bikin sirik orang) jalan-jalan gratisan:
Gw ke Toraja dong. Lu pasti sirik kan? Eh, jangan sirik dulu. Liat photo2 gw di FB besok, nah lu baru boleh sirik deh. Ralat: boleh sirik banget! Secara lu batal kan ke Toraja? hahahahaha
>> damn... dan gw pun dengan nurutnya... sirik

0818xxxxxx, ngaku-ngaku scientist tapi terobsesi jadi penari striptease:
Like usual. Cuci pakaian seminggu, ngepel rumah, masak & sekarang browsing2 aja.
>> Hmm.... mungkin lu kudu tinjau ulang obsesi lu, mending jadi housekeeper deh kekekeke

xx1616xxxxxx, penyiar radio rusak yang lagi skola gratis:
Lagi latian "menyonyo" (menyanyi, pen), untuk fund raising.

08129xxxxxx, pecinta wanita:
At home: bebersih rumah & kerja kerjaan kantor

0816xxxxxx, pemerhati anak2, pengamat sosial dan pecinta GRATISan:
Fun, just arrived from cottage with the kids

0813xxxxxx, another kontraktor, didikan Jepang. Hobi rodi & romusha:
Gw ga enak badan cyn. Keasikan ngerodi n lupa istirahat. Gw di Bandung sekarang, ada proyek baru. Di sini hujan mulu, jadi inget elu hahahaha



So watts yr wiken story?
Feel free to submit it to me.
Ketik REG spasi WIKENSTORY and send it to 081xxxxxxxx ha-ha

Happy belated wiken pals, now back to reality!
Yuk.......mari!

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Mar 19, 2009


sepertinya sudah lama ga posting yang ringan-ringan

bukan berarti postingan selama ini berat
teutep... posting hal-hal yang ga penting

ah penting ga penting kan relatif... hehehehe
cuman kok ga ada lucu-lucunya


apa memang hidup juga lagi ga lucu ya?
yuk mari.......

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Mar 18, 2009


it's 34 degree outside
and am fine inside
how's that sound? 
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Mar 16, 2009

to avoid and being avoided


--Saskya Pandita


have you meet the person who can see perforate your soul? 
who can make you talk about the darkest and brightest side of your journey, at the same time? 
a kind of person who doesn't talk much thru tounge but thru eyes

is that kind of person really exist? 
if so

perhaps it's better not to avoid that kind of person
since it can see you perforate your soul, tortured you with an increasing demand to speak even more

boudaries were created for some reasons
and even though we are social living creatures, we do have grey-black-green-red area 
the area which can only be entered by ourselves
and mysteries are best to be kept
just the way they are


at some point, it is better to walk alone
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Mar 12, 2009


It takes two to speak the truth — one to speak and another to hear.
--Thoreau 


for those....... 
who can make other saying  the truth
to pull out (almost) the deepest secret inside them

and to hear in silence... at once
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Mar 3, 2009

still about maybe.. dan senja


Maybe mistakes are what make our fate...without them what would shape our lives?
Maybe if we had never veered off course we wouldn't fall in love, have babies, or be who we are.
After all,
things change, so do cities, people come into your life and they go.
But it's comforting to know that the ones you love are always in your heart... and if you're very lucky, a plane ride away”
--Sex and the city


untuk senja, yang memulas langit sore menjadi begitu indah
menorehkan warna kemerahan bak lukisan
meneteskan kesejukan yang mendinginkan bara
tanpa membuatnya padam

mengisi kekosongan yang sengaja disisakan
membungkus semua ilusi yang terkadang menjadi inspirasi

senja.......
yang indah dan selalu ada

tanpa harus bertanya...
mengapa

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Mar 1, 2009

young-fun, grow-up?


“When you're young, your whole life is about the pursuit of fun.
Then, you grow up and learn to be cautious. You could break a bone or a heart. You look before you leap and sometimes you don't leap at all because there's not always someone there to catch you. And in life, there's no safety net. When did it stop being fun and start being scary?”
--Sex and the city

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Feb 28, 2009

About Maybe



Maybe some women aren't meant to be tamed.

Maybe they just need to run free til they find someone just as wild to run with them.

Maybe all men are a drug. Sometimes they bring you down and sometimes, like now, they get you so high.

But the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you can find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just fabulous.”
--Sex and the City




and it's all about MAYBE, the thing you have to deal,
in life

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