CYNTHASIDE

Lunar year dan hujan

2012-01-23T10:55:00.001+07:00

Banyak orang bertanya-tanya...
Mengapa hujan tak kunjung tiba
Apakah angin meniupnya jauh ke utara atau justru melipir ke selatan?

Banyak orang bertanya-tanya
Apakah tahun baru hitungan bulan kali ini tanpa hujan?

Dan kemudian.......
Hujan pun datang
Mengguyur deras
Jatuh tak tertahankan menghujam bumi
Aroma tanah basah menyeruak semerbak

Apakah orang masih bertanya?
Mengapa hujan terlambat tiba?

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR eperibodih
Let's hope it's a good one
Without any fear

Peluk cium dari pecinta hujan

So.......

2012-01-22T16:55:00.001+07:00

It's not you
It's not me
Seriously, it's not even me getting tired of you

It's just the phase
when we have distance in between
when we realised we talked too much
when we realised that
we might invite "bore" to fill in

So........
It's not you, it's not me
It's just a moment
This time will pass

Hey Sun

2012-01-20T11:02:00.000+07:00

It's bright and sunny here.......
Hey sun, nice to see you again.

Don't get me wrong, I love rain, always have, always will.
But too much rain makes me miss the sun too.
Remember the cup cake theory?
When you had too much of it, there will be a moment when you realised that you can't bite it anymore.

This particular moment brings me to this thought:

"Aku hujan, kamu pelangi.
Kita hanya butuh matahari."

How is your day?

-In the hectic with the unbalanced mind-

2012

2012-01-19T20:56:00.003+07:00

Sudah berjalan sembilan belas hari
Sekian

Iya, udah gitu aja.

awkward moment

2011-09-21T17:59:00.001+07:00

an awkward moment is.......
when you know something will happen, a not fun one, but you still cannot avoid it.

They say we always have options.
I guess what they mean is, the way we deal with that awkward things.
How we see, cope and then let them be the experience which enrich our daily life.

Laughing

2011-09-19T23:33:00.000+07:00

Laughing is definitely an important component in Cyn's hierarchy of needs. That simple and that complicated.

Laugh!
Now, where you stand ;))

Time Flies

2011-09-07T19:31:00.000+07:00

Yes, it does.
But I don't.
Maybe will be.

Hello September

2011-09-01T17:34:00.000+07:00

I wanted to say: Wake me up when September come...
But it's already September ;-)

September begins with some changes in my blog's the template, am still frustrating to adjust the header till now.
Although am using the free template, still find it difficult to adjust here and there.
At this particular situation, I envy my super-code-expert fellows. It will take them few minutes to adjust my super huge header (width: 494) and make it more eyes friendly. *sigh*
The header itself already is a one blog page HUAHAHAHAK.
But here I am, still trying to understand the concept that codes are poets.
Errrrrrr, they are totally different species for me.

See the composition?

Anyway, please enjoy this blog when you can!
I might get frustrated and move to wordpress huahahahak....

Ramadhan

2011-08-01T00:38:00.001+07:00

Ramadhan.......
Setahun datang sekali, dinanti, dipuji, disucikan. Bulan penuh rahmat, penuh berkah dan saatnya beribadah.

Bagi yang memeluk dan mengimani, menjalankan ibadah puasa.
Perjuangan melawan segala yang dijauhkan, proses mengendalikan diri, bergelut dengan emosi dan menjadikannya fitri.
Bagi yang tidak, menikmati fenomena orang yang berpuasa.
Rona wajah yang berubah di hari pertama, atau ketenangan dan senyum merekah yang terpancar dari raut muka mereka.
Mengagumi bahwa puasa tidak menjadikan mereka rentan terhadap kekejaman kata, tingginya nada atau tekanan bahasa.
Bahwa perbedaan itu indah dan apresiasi terhadapnya menjadikannya lebih bermakna.

Ramadhan di ujung detik
Bulan penuh fitri yang selalu dinanti
Bulan kemenangan

Selamat berpuasa temans, kiranya kedamaian dan keikhlasan menyambangi dan menetap di hati sanubari.

Ramadhan yang fitri, selalu dinanti, dari banyak sisi.

Terkadang

2011-07-29T00:29:00.002+07:00

Kata orang, penyesalan selalu datang terlambat.

*******

Semua itu pengalaman.
Yang sudah terjadi, hanya pengalaman.
Tidak selalu baik ataupun buruk atau diantaranya.

Iya.
Semua itu pengalaman yang menjadikan kita menjadi kita yang sekarang.
Lebih kuat atau lemah atau diantaranya, itu proses.
Lebih baik atau buruk atau diantaranya. Itu lagi-lagi proses.
Semua itu pengalaman.
Dan kadang, kita belajar, bahwa terbuka tidak selalu baik.
Tertutup tidak selalu aman.
Dan jujur tidak selalu berbuah manis, namun tetap melegakan.

Dan bahwa simplifikasi tidak selalu menjadi solusi.

Ouch

2011-03-28T13:20:00.000+07:00

When you thought that you already a few steps away...

The reality tells you that you were being pulled to the starting point again.

Do not react. Breathe.

Do not think too much. Feel.

Do not ask so many questions. Listen

Do not feel. Just surrender.

-in the middle of nowhere-

Semoga

2011-03-18T00:07:00.001+07:00

Semoga.......
Mimpi buruk tidak menjadi kenyataan
Kita dan orang-orang yang kita cintai dilindungiNya dari segala marabahaya
Kendaraan yang kita gunakan memberikan kenyamanan, bukan mencelakakan
Cuaca menjadi kawan bukan menjadi halangan
Umur panjang diberikan, kesehatan dijaga
Rezeki tidak putus dan bisa berbagi dengan sesama.
Kebahagiaan dan ketenangan batin menjadi teman perjalanan
Dendam dan kebencian dihalau dan terbuka pintu-pintu maaf itu

Semoga.......
Amin
Amin
Amin

No Title

2011-03-13T12:30:00.001+07:00

Selalu merasa janggal bila membuka blogspot di chrome.
Layoutnya ada yang terasa aneh.
Padahal sama-sama se-google.

Mengapa ya?

Anyway, find another me in http://cynthas.tumblr.com/

Yes, again

2011-02-21T23:27:00.000+07:00

Here I said again.

"The simple truth never fails to surprise me."

And I am not a big fan of surprises.

Oh yes, shit happens.
And yes, we all live and learn.
That whatever happened in the past were just experiences.
Yes and yes, just experiences.

Oh how I miss the positive energy.

Until we meet again

2011-02-15T23:02:00.001+07:00

I made a wish to the sky today.
"Please don't die. Not now."

And you didn't.
You didn't die.
You just move.
And I didn't die, either.
Not now :)

So here we are, separated softly by the distance, celebrating the life itself.
We live and shall continue to enjoy every breath we take and let go.

Until we meet again, then.

Senyum

2011-02-10T18:09:00.002+07:00

Iya. Senyum.

Gampang? Iya.

Susah? Iya.

Lah, saya tersentuh membaca ajakan mbak tika di akun twitternya.

Untuk tersenyum, untuk negeri ini.

Untuk tidak meremehkan kekuatan senyum.

Kekuatan positif dari senyuman.

Nah, foto bisa dikirimkan ke akun twitter mbak @tikabanget atau kirim ke email beliau di tikabanget [at] gmail.com.

Saya mencari foto-foto lama. Tentang senyum.

Tulus. Murni. Dan membuat saya kembali tersenyum.

Mengirimkan foto via twitter atau link flickr.

Kembali tersenyum.

Melihat foto dimuat di web SENYUMKU, INDONESIAKU

Kembali tersenyum :)

Ah. Benar kan?

Jangan meremehkan kekuatan dari senyuman.

Dari runtutan proses di atas, saya pun sudah beberapa kali mengulas senyum.

Manis tidaknya, itu relatif.

Tapi senyum itu, menyembuhkan :-)

Yuk, tersenyum untuk Indonesia.

Montir

2011-01-30T19:10:00.001+07:00

Butuh kursus soal motor.
Dicari montir dengan kesabaran luar biasa. Syarat utama. Sabar.
Syarat kedua sampai keenam, sabar.
Syarat ketujuh, montir.

Loh, mengapa?

Supaya bisa benerin motor sendiri.
Supaya tidak diragukan kalau ke bengkel.
Supaya ga ditawarkan: "Butuh ditemenin ga ke bengkel?" Hanya gara-gara saya perempuan.

Perempuan selalu diragukan ke bengkel.

Padahal, tidak semua laki-laki juga tahu seluk beluk mesin. Kecuali kalau mereka montir handal.

Sekian sesi curhat.

aha

2011-01-03T14:02:00.003+07:00

mulai bosan. berputar-putar di hal yang sama.

waktu terus berlalu.

tadinya sudah bisa merangkak. jatuh kembali terjerembab.

belajar berjalan kembali.

lucu.

kesadaran dan moment bisa datang dari mana saja.

termasuk menonton kisah sukses politikus di negara adidaya.

aha...

if we focus on the negative side and think about it all the time, we will not have enough energy to think about other important stuffs.

aha.

easy to talk since talk is cheap. i know.

but we can. i can. you can and yes, we can.

enjoy whatever, embrace whatever.

be brave to be who you really are.

the possitive and and brave people.

and this is not, my 2011 resolution.

Perbincangan malam itu

2010-11-22T22:12:00.001+07:00

"Telurnya satu, paria satu, yang lain campur-campur saja pak."
"Pake bumbu kacang, neng?"
"Pake pak."
"Kecap?"
"Pake pak."
"Saus?"
"Hmmm...boleh deh. Tapi dikit aja pak."

.......

Semuanya tujuh ribu rupiah. Sepiring penuh syomai, pedagang keliling, dengan payung besar yang diikatkan di sepedanya. Beliau berjualan dari sore hingga tengah malam nanti.

Syomai dan kawan-kawan tidak disiapkannya sendiri. Ada pedagang besar yang menyediakan dagangan lengkap dengan sepedanya. Boss,begitu beliau menyebutnya.

Sistem setoran.
Bila semua dagangan laku terjual, penghasilan yang ia dapat Rp 30,000 sehari. Bila dagangan ada yang tersisa, dikembalikan pada si boss. Tidak ada sistem penalti, bila tidak ada yang laku terjual, bapak pedagang tak perlu membayar sejumlah tertentu. Hanya perlu mengembalikan dagangan yang tersisa.

Hmmm....
"Trus, sisa dagangan itu diapakan, pak?
"Ya... diolah lagi neng, sama boss."
"Heh...maksudnya, pak?
"Ya dimasak lagi. Diolah lagi, jadi dagangan baru."

*woootttt*

Bapak pedagang berlalu, saya terdiam. Menatap sepiring penuh syomai, membayangkan betapa tidak segarnya mereka.

Tentunya, percakapan selintas seorang dengan bapak pedagang syomai keliling tidak bisa dijadikan patokan. Bahwa semua dagangan keliling tidak segar dan berbahaya. Namun, tetap saja miris mendengarnya.

Banyak mengapa terlintas di labirin-labirin otak yang sudah semakin padat.

Ah.. di tulisan lain, akan saya bahas.
Temans, ada yang memiliki pengalaman serupa?

Pindah atau tidak

2010-11-21T01:03:00.001+07:00

Sudah lama terbersit ide untuk pindah rumah.
Rumah virtual, ya blog ini.
Beberapa tahun silam pernah mencoba rumah sementara, di dot net. Persiapan untuk benar-benar pindah. Namun apa hendak dikata, persiapan gagal dan tetap tinggal di sini.

Kali ini, bertanya....
Mengapa tidak ada aplikasi blogspot untuk gadget?
Wordpress ada :)
Apa harus pindah ke sana?
Ah, melihat jumlah postingan dan jumlah tamu yang segitu-gitu saja, mungkin ada baiknya tetap di sini :)

Terkadang

2010-11-16T18:30:00.001+07:00

Simplifikasi bukan solusi.
Itu sudah.

Books and bookmarks

2010-11-15T17:51:00.001+07:00

I used to collect books. The idea is to keep and then, someday.. move them to my private library, in my private room in my cozy house. That explains why I rarely lend my books to others. I lent some and then they returned them folded everywhere, or even worst, they don't even look like a book anymore.

I don't fold the pages, I use bookmarks.
Handmade bookmarks, particularly.
I made bookmarks.

I made them from almost everything.
I use bookmarks.
I love bookmarks.
And now..
I lend books with the bookmarks.

I learn to let go. I learn to accept.
I lend books now, I stopped collect them.
I learn to let my babies away, my books and also my bookmarks.

It's a silly posting but all I wan to say is..
I learn to let go.

But for now

2010-11-08T13:00:00.003+07:00

Hello blogvserse.......

So many things happened in my country, in our lovable country, Indonesia.

They say that Indonesia dangerously beautiful

True

Beautiful

But dangerous

I will not write about "ring of fire" well, not yet and not now.

Although this has some connection with the natural disasters that occurs recently

Wasior, Mentawai then Merapi.

So many things are flying in my mind.

But for now, what I can do is pray for Indonesia.

Pray for the heroes that help the refugees

Donate as much as I can

And then go back to my silence corner again

I am a wierdo, that what they always say.

A lit bit: if, live and learn

2010-10-26T22:52:00.001+07:00

If experience is the best teacher, then we should be the expert in disaster management.
The first in the world.

Are we?
Expert?
Disaster management?

They say we live and learn.
From experience?
To improve how we manage things?

Well,
Do we learn?
Or just live and blame?

For those who struggle in flood, earth quake and volcano eruption.

Berdamai

2010-10-24T23:55:00.001+07:00

Dengan siapa?
Siapa musuh-musuhku?
Siapa yang menentangku?
Siapa menjauhkan aku dari kedamaian?

Mereka?
Bukankah mereka seharusnya mendukungku?
Mengapa?
Bukankah darah jauh lebih kental dari air?

Hey, tunggu
Berdamai.....
Dengan diriku terlebih dahulu
Ya,
Aku berdamai dengan diriku
Bersama, kita hadapai mereka
Aku, aku dan aku, kita sama-sama hadapi mereka

Awan

2010-10-21T01:34:00.001+07:00

Saya sudah menitipkanmu pada angin.
Merasakan hangatnya pelukan mentari dan dinginnya hujan.
Ya, saya mengembalikanmu pada semesta, tempat kita bertemu.

Mengapa hangatnya kini tak terasa?
Hanya tinggal dingin yang membeku.

Hey, saya sudah merelakanmu menjadi kamu.
Awan hitam di langit biru.
Bila berat beban itu.
Jatuhlah kembali ke bumi.
Tanah sudah menanti.

Saya... tidak lagi menanti hujan.
Namun bila kamu hendak jatuh.
Tanah sudah menantimu.

Blogging

2010-10-17T19:15:00.001+07:00

Have been blogging for more than seven years. Eight, I think. But never got the chance to join the blogger gathering, not even this year.

Maybe next year..
Definitely maybe :)

Young and Responsible

2010-10-12T02:12:00.000+07:00

A rare combination
Is that even exist?
Young and responsible?

I wonder

Sometimes

2010-10-07T17:26:00.001+07:00

.......
You can't fight all the memories that flying in your mind.
You just can't.

Bukan Manusia Pagi

2010-10-05T09:04:00.001+07:00

Telat lagi *siiigghhh*
Ah...
Mau lah belajar jadi manusia pagi :)

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Bahasa

2010-10-05T01:58:00.000+07:00

A dear friend protested me: "Mengapa sih selalu menulis dalam bahasa asing? Aku sulit mengerti."

I wanted to ask that dear friend to learn English. But then, I decided to write some in bahasa.

Hasilnya, belepotan ke mana-mana.
Fenomena aneh.
Bahasa Indonesia itu bahasa ibu dan bahasa sehari-hari saya loh. Tapi menulis dengan maksimal penyimpangan 30% dari EYD, sulit juga :(

Oh dear,
I will write more lah in bahasa.
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Membaca lagi

2010-10-05T01:54:00.000+07:00

"Senggot timbane rante. Tiwas ngegot ning ora suwe."

Ya, sedang membaca Ronggeng Dukuh Paruk oleh Ahmad Tohari. Baru halaman 14 dari 404 halaman :)

Setelah selesai dengan Paris Pandora-nya Fira Basuki dan belum menyelesaikan Swahili for the Broken Hearted-nya Peter Moore. Pilihan jatuh pada buku bersampul oranye menyala ini.

Buku legendaris yang dijadikan referensi dari 50 tesis dan skripsi. Membuat mata tak kunjung terpejam.

Ah, membaca lagi untuk dapat menulis lagi.
Menyenangkan :)
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Back Again

2010-10-05T01:41:00.001+07:00

Hey blog world.......
How are you?
I need to write again, post again and blog walking again. I almost forgot how fun the blog world is ;)

So... here I am, started to write *again* with my gadget. The layout will not be as friendly to the reader's eyes, since this was being posted with email. Yeah, anyway... I will fill you again, blog.

Readers, even though you are not so many.
This is a kind of reminder, that I will start to post about anything.
So be ready with the whole nonsense things which pop in my mind.

I am back, again!
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Trip to Africa

2010-09-10T05:31:00.002+07:00

So I queued like four times and the happy expression went from my face hahahaha

Arrived at Changi at 10 pm and the internet connection was under maintenance. Hah....

Stayed there for 3 hours and then had the longest flight ever to JoBurg.

But the SQ crew cabin was fantastic, so I kinda enjoyed it.

At JoBurg airport, I decided to spend the time at the smoking lounge.

Paid ZAR 22(Rp 28,000) for regular black coffee, taste like our own Sumatran's coffee.

And then continue to Nairobi.

The airport in JoBurg was big, bigger than Cengkareng. But the way they called the passengers was unique. You need to ensure that you were at the right gate. Oh, the gates there were gates without wall. So you need to pay attention since the ground crew will shout to announce the flight. "Mozambique.... Mozambique.... " like the "kondektur bus" in Jakarta shouting "Lebak Bulusss.... Kampung Rambutan... " Quite the same hahahahaha

So, managed to arrived at Nairobi. I was so lucky, the immigration officer was so nice and I did not have difficulty in getting my visa on arrival. Spent a night in Nairobi and the flew to Yaounde the next day.

When I arrived at Yaounde, I got the impression that the officer was trying to hold my passport. I had the visa and formal invitation letter, but still need to wait for 45 minutes to get my passport stamped. Thanks God, our driver from the Regional Office came and then dealt with the officers.

And here I am, save and sound in Yaounde.

Great weather and meeting with nice people.

Too bad my French is very poor, so I use body language when I need to buy food or mineral water.

OK folks, update you later.

Time to rest now.

Hugs from Yaounde.

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Hurraayyyy

2010-09-10T05:12:00.002+07:00

Finally, one of my dream, going to Africa came true.

I flew alone.. yaaayyyy

It was a long route from Jakarta-Singapore-Johannesburg-Nairobi-Yaounde.

Spent more than 22 hours in the plane and at the transit terminals at above airports.

When I departed from Jakarta, it was the official queueing day for me. It seems that everyone wanted to spend their holidays abroad.

Will post more details after this.

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late lunch

2010-04-19T12:48:00.002+07:00

waiting for late lunch..

Me? late lunch?

Well.. it's a FREE late lunch heuhuehuehue

Don't worry, I had three lumpia udang and two Danish cookies

during lunch time :p

I mean, I have to eat something before lunch, right?

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Back again

2010-04-17T12:42:00.001+07:00

Sometimes I wish that blogger has its own application for particular gadget. Like wordpress. So we can preview, submit and even make a private posts.

I just found a scratch book, contains of my notes a year ago. It makes me laugh, how I liked to express almost every feeling and said everything that popped up in my brain.

And read about all my dreams and haven't reached any of them. Time do flies xixixi
I almost forget how fun the blog world is. Well folks, am back :)

just visiting

2010-03-20T12:46:00.001+07:00

wow...

it's been so long since my last post.

heylow blog,

I just drop by for a visit...

Maybe I will come back later, with lots of ideas and writings

But for now, I just want to visit you..

You know, to make sure that you are all right in your silence time ;)

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thanks :-)

2010-02-12T17:39:00.002+07:00

a friend: hey... yg namanya jatoh itu sakit.. apalagi kalo pake ketimpa tangga. tapi elu kan bukan manusia lemah (oh yes, i'm sure about that). yang mana elu punya tangan dan kaki untuk bangun lagi

**jeda**

a friend: caiyo mate. cheer up laa... don't look back, hidup ini tidak sesempit ruang kerja gw LoL

a friend’s friend: it just happened

a friend: tetep aja laa.. meskipun baru 1 detik, tetep aja itu udah lewat

About Love

2010-02-07T18:48:00.000+07:00

G: Grey loves me
G's mom: So does William (W)
W: Yes, I love you
G: How?
W: In the way that I understand love
- the Dutches -

Jerawat

2010-01-19T00:00:00.000+07:00

Jerawat sudah seperti sahabat karib. Kadang muncul sedikit, kadang mengecil seolah menghilang. Kadang datang beramai-ramai seperti mau berangkat arisan, kadang muncul sendirian bak jagoan.

Besar, kecil, kosong, batu.
Berbagai tipe dan bentuk, setia di sana.
Di wajah dan punggung.

Ia lebih akrab dari sahabat karib.
Berbagai perawatan dijalankan, dari mulai yang alami hingga medis. Krim ini, itu, terapi hormonal. Hingga akhirnya menyerah.

Kembali pada hobi lama, mencet-mencet jerawat. I know, haram hukumnya apalagi dengan tangan tidak steril. Malah menambah peradangan, bikin bolong-bolong dan pori-pori membesar.

Jerawat tetap di sana dan hobi jorok mencet-mencet jerawat juga tetap dipelihara.
Hahahahaha...

Menulis

2010-01-16T01:50:00.000+07:00

Kamu tahu, mengapa saya menulis?
Bukan sekedar sebagai usaha untuk dipahami
Bukan juga untuk sekedar eksistensi
Bukan hanya untuk pelepasan emosi

Tapi kombinasi ketiga hal tadi
Juga untuk hal-hal lain

Yang saya tahu, saya menulis untuk menjaga keutuhan jiwa. Untuk menjadi seorang saya.
Yang keras namun rapuh
Pekerja keras sekaligus pemalas kelas kakap
Yang cuek tapi butuh diperhatikan
Yang sangat percaya diri namun minder di saat yang bersamaan

Jadi saya menulis, bukan untuk dibaca
Tidak mengindahkan kaidah-kaidah bahasa
Tidak mengikuti sistematika baku
Tidak ikut tren juga tidak konsisten

Saya menulis,
untuk menjaga saya tetap menjadi saya

Saya menulis, karena itu saya ada

Heyyylooowww world

2010-01-13T20:16:00.000+07:00

Am so back hahahaha

Maaf karna sudah buat blog ini mati suri
So here I am
Dengan konsep sama
Another side of me
Same-o-same-o me

Nice to be back

Update you later guysss...

pen-derita-an

2010-01-07T23:24:00.000+07:00

seseorang di twitter bilang: "mengapa penderitaan ini tak ada habis-habisnya?"

kamu pernah merasa hal yang sama?
pasti lebih banyak yang menjawab ya, daripada yang tidak.

penderitaan, seperti kebahagiaan, sepertinya cuma rasa yg datang dan pergi. kadang cuma mampir, kadang tinggal lebih lama. ada yang menikmati manis, pahit, getirnya. ada yang sibuk bertanya.. mengapa mengapa dan mengapa.

mengapa bisa terjadi, mengapa menimpanya, mengapa sekarang, dan mengapa mengapa dan mengapa

semua bisa dicari penyebabnya
semua bisa dijelaskan
dengan logika, dengan rasa, dengan apa pun

penderitaan, seperti bahagia..
hanya rasa

jadi, bisa dibagi, didelegasikan, direduksi, tapi tidak dieliminasi ha-ha

penderitaan gak habis-habis?
lempar aja...
bagikan, delegasikan, reduksi
lama-lama juga habis
kalau ga habis-habis..
yaaa.. segala sesuatu ada masanya ;-)

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2010-01-07T12:25:00.001+07:00

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in the end

2009-12-16T18:46:00.003+07:00

who said that in the end it doesn't really matters?

we are living in the world of results

so in the end.......
it's just you and yourself against this world
you are you... that never change
does "never change" means do not have the ability to adapt?

anyway,
you was born alone.. you'll die alone
in between... they are just illusion

is this a life without cause?
guess no cause no effect then?
another illusion hahahaha

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when you stay in your cubicle for too long:

2009-12-03T12:12:00.002+07:00

you don't mind if your desk is not that tidy anymore
you eat there, dream there and mad there
you open as many windows that your pc can hold
you put mirror to control who is watching you and is there any new stalker coming
you are no longer surprised when people come to visit with scary faces and high tones
you are expected to work faster and longer
you don't go to cinema, skip the expensive excercises and just pay for nothing
you do all your personal needs, online
you use flat tones
you don't talk anymore to people in your office, you read their status updates and send your comments

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about balancing

2009-11-19T16:55:00.001+07:00

if it's all about balancing......

right and left

true and false

right and wrong

bright and dark

why it is so difficult to understand the mechanism?

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hehehe

2009-11-03T14:24:00.000+07:00

Sometimes, it's so funny how life treats you. All you have to do is laugh hehehe

Dun carry the burden too long
Just laugh out loud.......

hey.. end of october, already?

2009-10-28T00:26:00.009+07:00

waktu berlalu begitu cepat
tanpa sadar, penghujung tahun tinggal di depan mata.. heh.. bentar lagi oktober tutup hari, selamat datang november dan oh noooo... masa si dah desember lagi?????

mengapa siklus menjadi semakin seperti robot?
plus makan minum boker dan kebutuhan dasar manusia lainnya

tidak baca berita, tidak nonton tv, tapi yattaaaaaa... bisa online hehehehehe
baru mulai blogwalking, sarana penyeimbang otak buntu supaya makin buntu *ga bisa nulis kaya dulu*...

kata orang *sorry, belum bisa fasih bahasa sapi*... menulislah dengan hati ;-)
mmm.... tapi gw memilih mengetik dengan jari
tanpa difikir, tanpa diedit banyak-banyak.. just type and click

terkadang, hal-hal di luar kebiasaan bisa jadi bumbu indah di keseharian (ketauan banget bored-nya sama so-called-routine yaaa... )
surprise?
sudah lama gak pura-pura kaget :p

kata orang *again, belum fasih bahasa sapi*......
menulis mengubah dunia... :-)
gak percaya?
coba deh tulis apa saja...
at least dunia kamu berubah sedikit...
biar sedikit, tapi perubahan itu ada....

kalo ga kerasa,
mungkin ada baiknya les bahasa sapi.... moooooooooooooooooooooooo... hahahahaha

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ilusi

2009-10-26T23:31:00.000+07:00

Apa rasanya kembali on line secara teratur?
Menyenangkan

Baca apa sekarang?
Err... Twitter, dimulai dari buku satu

Baru tersadar, senua di dunia ini hanya ilusi.
Rasa senang,sakit,kesepian. Semua hanya dipagari batas tipis, dikemas manis, dirangkai menjadi sebuah paket ilusi.

Sedang apa sekarang?
Meresapi ilusi

aging sucks hahahaha

2009-10-07T17:44:00.004+07:00

just watched british bulldog played at the sporthall
looks like a galasin/gobak sodor game to me
with changing rules
so people will need to run from side to side

since they were from many countries, so they played italian bulldog, brazilian buldog
and italian with french passport bulldog ha-ha
anyway, it still looked like a galasin to me :p

i didnt play.. too tired to run at that time
mmm... gues that am not that young anymore

ps: i played frisbee tapi loh hehehehe

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back from hiatus?

2009-10-04T13:12:00.003+07:00

sudah lama kayanya ga post, blogwalking or comments

i realize that i really need to fix my internet connection at home
bye bye speedy with a broken modem

push my self to wake up
from a long hiatus
kinda miss the social network.. a lot hahahahaha
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jawaban yang tak menyenangkan

2009-08-15T07:23:00.002+07:00

jadi ini mengapa kemarin begitu merindu sungai dan hutan. tempatmu berada.
di saat yang sama kau tergeletak tak berdaya.

inilah jawabnya?
mengapa mataku tak kunjung terpejam, tadi malam.
apakah kau terus memanggilku dalam ketidakberdayaanmu?

inikah jawabnya?
mengapa ia begitu perih terasa....

apabila iya, lebih baik aku kembali pada ruang sempit yang tak beraroma.
dan duduk diam di sana
lebih baik aku tak merasakan indahnya sungai, bila kau pun tak di sana

selamat jalan adikku sayang
terlalu cepat kau pergi, tinggalkan kami semua di sini.

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kali ini, sungai

2009-08-15T00:25:00.003+07:00

merindu gemericik air sungai di tengah hutan yang hijau
rindangnya pepohonan dan aroma hutan yang menggoda
tanah basah yang seksi serta angin yang berserakan menerpa

menyeruput kopi hitam panas yang pekat
menikmati setiap tetesnya
kepahitan yang tidak bisa dibiarkan lama
tidak bisa dibiarkan sampai mengendap

kala kosong tak selalu berarti tak berisi
kala berat tak selalu berarti beban

terpejam, membayangkan cantiknya sungai
bebatuan besar yang setia menghiasi
gemercik air yang menghujam dasar,
menerpa-menghantam batu besar
kadang deras... tapi tak menghanyutkan
kadang tenang... tapi menimbun misteri

merindu.......
gemercik air sungai
rindangnya pepohonan
aroma hutan dan tanah basah
sapaan angin dan hangatnya mentari pagi

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hujan yang tak kunjung datang

2009-08-12T11:02:00.001+07:00

tidak ada hujan
tidak ada aroma tanah basah yang begitu seksi, menggoda
tidak ada angin semilir yang menyapa
tidak ada tetesan gerimis yang menembus kulit
tidak ada terpaan derasan hujan, yang melarutkan semua beban

tidak ada hujan

tidak ada senja, yang indah memulas langit sore
langit cerah, terkadang berawan
mentari begitu gagah menyebarkan sinarnya
senja berlalu, tanpa sempat menyapa

semua begitu biru..
kelam tapi tidak hitam
langit berhiaskan awan... putih-biru dan membisu

tidak ada hujan
tidak ada senja
hanya biru...
dan membisu

menanti hujan
tapi ia tak kunjung datang

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2009-06-25T12:14:00.002+07:00

it's melon, apple, aquatic, jasmine, magnolia, violet, lily of the valley, peach, apricot and musk.

the new me.

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2009-05-15T00:00:00.001+07:00

“A good manager doesn't try to eliminate conflict; he/she tries to keep it from wasting the energies of her/his people. If you're the boss and your people fight you openly when they think that you are wrong - that's healthy.”
-- Robert Townsend

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2009-05-12T22:56:00.001+07:00

"When I needed you most when I needed a friend, you let me down"
-Blink 182

friendship is delicate as a glass, once broken, it can be fixed, but there will always be cracks.

when the moment was gone, let it be in the pass

remember to forgive, forget and to move on
if it may occurs again in the future, don't let your ignorance and insensitivity let your friend, down.

when that person needed you the most.

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2009-05-04T23:07:00.001+07:00

having another phase of what so called
" a writer's block"

perhaps it's just a time...
to read all the books at my unread bookshelf

yaaaaaaa... memperpendek daftar dosa lah...
doyan belinya, males bacanya

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2009-04-30T23:29:00.001+07:00

started my debt diet program weeks ago
cut two cc... and so happy to do so
but i cannot help myself
to look at this gorgeous wedges

just to look at it
and adding it to my wish list ;-)

anyone?
anyone et all???????????????

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type and click

2009-04-27T22:22:00.001+07:00

do you think before you write?
it depends
on what?
where it will be published
er.... you mean?
if it's an official e-mail, i think before it was sent. if it's an official circular, i think before i proof-read. if it's a blog entry, in my own blog, then i don't think when i write or publish.
you just type then click?
yeap.. type and click

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How Open Are You?

2009-04-24T01:33:00.003+07:00

still diving from quiz to quiz...
it's kinda fun..

and surprisingly, it said that

You Are 47% Open

You are a fairly open person, but you also like to maintain your privacy.
You ~~definitely~~ will tell ~~all (okay, almost all)~~ some parts to your closest friends...
But strangers and acquaintances only get a peek into your life.

ha-ha
you can try it at here
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musim

2009-04-23T21:49:00.004+07:00

"sekarang lagi musim apa di sana?"

yang jelas belum musim duren...
tapi musim panas. cuaca yang terik mengganggu stabilitas otak dalam bekerja. pstttttt... ada musim yang lain, yang lebih seru. musim arisan, reunian, gathering yang arrangement-nya dilakukan via facebook.

ini wabah musiman.

beberapa teman lama ikut terjangkit wabah ini. mereka mengirimkan undangan reuni, via facebook. lagi musim katanya... ah lagi-lagi musim. berawal dari satu pesan kemudian beranak-pinak jadi puluhan lainnya. seperti banjir yang tak kunjung reda. hihihihihi

beberapa orang (termasuk saya), bukan orang yang standby melototin facebook seperti broker mantengin pegerakan harga saham. gadget juga sengaja dibatasi supaya tak tergoda untuk terus online, karena satu dan puluhan alasan tentunya.

ketika pesan di facebook tak kunjung dibalas, protes pun berdatangan. ga reply tepat waktu lah, ga ada kabarnya lah, confirm susah amat lah...lah lah lah lah

padahal, jangankan pesan... ada sembilan puluh tujuh friend requests yang belum disentuh hahahahaha

kalau sudah begitu..... tertawa!
keras dan sering.. itu yang saya lakukan.

mengapa?

karena musim, jadi harus lewat facebook.
padahal ada fasilitas e-mail dan sms yang siap untuk diberdayakan.
khususnya untuk perempuan yang bekerja minus BB or iphone yang bisa terus SIAGA dengan facebook. lagian, kita kan satu kota loh....

musim... ah lagi-lagi musim.
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2009-04-18T19:10:00.001+07:00

“The only reason why we ask other people how their weekend was
is so we can tell them about our own weekend.”

--Chuck Palahniuk

Do you agree?

Am not

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only fear can defeat life

2009-04-11T08:01:00.001+07:00

"I must say a word about fear. It is life's only true opponent.
Only fear can defeat life."
-- Yann Martel, Life of Pi

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2009-04-10T10:48:00.001+07:00

The reason death sticks so closely to life isn’t biological necessity – it’s envy. Life is so beautiful that death has fallen in love with it...
-- Yann Martel, in Life of Pi

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is it our hobby?

2009-04-06T22:39:00.002+07:00

Stanford: Before I tell you, you have to promise not to judge.
Carrie: Do I judge?
Stanford: We all judge. That's our hobby. Some people do arts and crafts; we judge.

-Sex & The City
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Hari ini hari apa?

2009-04-05T19:03:00.000+07:00

Pertanyaan untuk peri

Entah ke mana kata-kata pergi
Gambar romantis itu pudar
Rasa yang mendayu hilang

Apa mungkin rasa puisiku hilang
Seperti pohon tak berdaun di musim dingin
Tapi tak juga itu
Lebih seperti bangun pagi yang amat biasa
Dan bertanya saat tengah malam

Hari ini hari apa

Dan mencoba mencari sisa-sisa perasaan
Manusia yang dulu
Yang pernah berjalan bersama
Hingga tak kukenali lagi

Jiwa dan tubuh sedang saling mencari
Saling berputar di jalan yang sama
Tapi tak bertemu
Mungkin yang lain sedang mampir naik kereta
Atau cuma duduk di tepi trotoar
Ya,mungkin kencing di sungai sambil pura-pura mabok
Agar tak malu

Diri yang dulu, diri yang mana
Pertanyaan ini mencari dan mencoba menakar
sejauh mana telah berubah

Apakah masih bisa kukenali lagi
Ataukah sudah tersesat
Salah jalan
Atau memang jalan tak ada ujung

Atau memang ini menulis di langit biru
Sambil kepulkan awan
Membayangkan gerimis di kampung
Dan duduk bercerita dengan Mama kios yang telah ditutup

Ah, itu kan dulu
Kemarin yang telah pergi
Sedangkan yang akan datang senyum
yang pernah Tawa yang luput

Dan, ah, kau seperti sedang mencari
Benar terasa kau seperti sendiri
Seperti peri yang terlambat pulang
Dan tak ingin pergi
Dan berdiri di pintu
Sambil bertanya

hari ini hari apa

Ah peri, apa perlu bertanya

Birmingham, 3 April 2009
By: Elcid Li, a friend, a writer and a good listener _____________________________________________________

is this love?

2009-04-04T21:02:00.004+07:00

dari awal, tidak seperti yang pertama
untuk yang pertama, di permulaan, lamaaaaaaa sekali membuka lembar demi lembar

tapi ketika sudah lebih dari lembar ke tujuh belas..
hasrat jadi tak terhentikan...
menjadi tidak sabar, rasa ingin tahu terus berkecamuk..
debaran jantung menjadi terdengar, mata tak kunjung terpejam,
kerutan menghiasi kening dan sesekali, senyuman tipis tersungging di bibir

ini yang kedua,
namun, dari lembar pertama, perasaan malas itu tak ada
yang ada keinginan yang menggebu untuk terus-menerus membukanya, cepat.. memburu.. memaksa untuk terus terjaga
ingin tahu bagaimana jadinya
seru, tegang, menyentuh..
sensasi yang ia berikan tak terputuskan

kini.......
tiba di penghujung akhir
rasanya sayang bila ia harus berakhir...
mulai membaca dengan lambat...sangat lambat..
meresapi setiap kata, memejamkan mata, memanjakan imajinasi
mungkin harus segera diakhiri
supaya bisa berpindah ke lain lagi
ke buku lain yang masih belum dibaca..*hiks*

mungkin akan membaca ulang..
berharap tidak ada detail yang terlewatkan
memanjakan rasa, walau sensasi yang ditawarkan
tidak akan pernah sama

yes, am reading this book and i think..
am so falling for it

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labil-mood-menular

2009-04-03T22:10:00.004+07:00

pergi ga ya..
pergi aja deh..
ah hujan... tapi di cubicle juga dah males, dah bego...
dah keras nih rahang..

pergi ga ya...
pergi deh...

akhirnya pergi juga.. walaupun telat.. banget.. sangat telat banget dan kebangetan deh telatnya.

emang klo lagi labil, kudunya ga bole deket-deket sama orang-orang yang moodnya lagi ga bagus. soalnya.. mood itu menular, jadi sering-seringlah melakukan ritual membuang mood slash aura negatif.. biar ga ketualaran hihihihihi

mood menular? yakin lu?
yakin, pasti.. am sure

nih ya... menurut Dr. Elaine Hatfield, a psychologist at the University of Hawaii:
"Emotional contagion happens within milliseconds, so quick you can't control it, and so subtly that you're not really aware it's going on”

mili sekon boi.. cepet ga tuh..
lebih cepat dari helaan nafas dan kedipan mata

waspadalah.......waspadalah.....

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about human action

2009-04-02T09:33:00.003+07:00

all human actions have one or more of these seven causes:
chance,
nature,
compulsion,
habit,
reason,
passion, and
desire.

Aristotle

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bukan wonderwoman

2009-03-31T00:01:00.001+07:00

me: am a very complicated human being. sometimes, i feel so stupid, not learning from the past.

a friend: we are only human

me: i know. but for now, am not quite comfort with myself. like u said, we are only human. a complicated ones... and am proud of that. am not gonna change who i am just because some people wants me to. this is me, take it or leave it, a-stupid-complicated-human-being. (psttttt gw jarang ngaku klo lagi bego)

a friend: ya, kadang we just just have to admit, that we're not wonderwoman hahahaha

and once again, she made me smile
thanks.. for being nice wherever u r, that night, when i was blown away by the wind

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be ready and stay away

2009-03-30T10:51:00.004+07:00

after having a wonderful wiken
without have to reply any boring text
i woke up at the wrong side of the bed, today!
my head was spinning and my right shoulder is killing me

and... so many rese people come to visit
just to test my patience
and i failed
oh yes.. i did hihihihihihi

pffffffffffffffffff
thinking of having another "hiatus" time...
since this could be a fantastic week folks..
need to speed up everything and keeping the balance at the sanity level, at the same time
guess it won't be hard... ^_^

so... be ready
and
just stay away huahahahahahha
in other words... "sana... jauh-jauh"

yes,
especially for you who made me unseal the deal

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was it so hard to be understood?

2009-03-28T01:02:00.005+07:00

maybe i didn't make myself clear

when i deal with you, that means you alone
not include anyone, anything, any feeling you have in your daily life.......whatsoever

and i refuse to know every single detail
and to know anyone
and to reject any third party tool, oh yes.. i do!

was it so hard to understand?
when it comes to my private half world, i set some boundaries

so,
do i make myself clear now?
or should we unseal the deal?

and it's just too easy for me
to walk out from your time space
since my world is not your world
i repeat..
my world is not the same like yours.. am martian, remember?

and was it so damn hard to understand?
that i cannot have anyone try to enter my-so-called-private-half-world-area

like i said.......
i have got nothing to hide...
i just refuse to share

that simple and that complicated

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it's Friday and am working loh

2009-03-27T07:33:00.002+07:00

“I always give 100% at work:

13% Monday

22% Tuesday

26% Wednesday

35% Thursday

4% Friday”

from http://thinkexist.com

It's Friday already?
Halah gaya..
kemarin (pas libur NYEPI), gw kira udah Jumat ha-ha
jadi masih berharap untuk ritual tidur-tidur-tidur and tidur lagi hahahahaha

ow.. i do miss my beauty-slash-beast-or-like-i-care sleep
YES darling, it's my twelve (or even more) hours sleep
yeap... kinda miss it already

a lot

hey.......dun take it wrong
am not complaining loh... (ehm)... yakin?
ow... yes, pasti, am sure...
absofuckinglutely laaaaaa
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no time?

2009-03-26T09:18:00.002+07:00

deeeeeeuuuuuuuhhhhh....
yang beneran has no time, esp for LOVE ha-ha

eits,kok sok tau gini?
lah.. klo dia ada waktu
pastinya VOR akan berganti FOR la...
yukkkkkkkkk

@Pelabuhan Sunda Kelapa

biar garing asal posting
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hide and share

2009-03-25T00:28:00.000+07:00

a guy: jangan suka dipendem tuh emosi, bisa gilaaa ennttaaarrrr.
me: i have nothing to hide, i just refuse to share. they're just too many
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whist list

2009-03-24T03:10:00.000+07:00

ulang taun masih lama
tapi dah ngupdet wish list..
well, that's a spirit ha-ha

lagian... ga usah nunggu ulang taun kan, klo mo ngasih.. ya ngasih aja
hehehehe *ngarep*
buruan.. timbang ntar malah jadi 100.. sekarang masih 29 loh..
yukkkkkkkkk mari

1.9 Oktober 1740; Drama Sejarah
oleh Remy Sylado

2.Prabowo Titisan Soeharto? Mencari Pemimpin Baru di Masa Paceklik
oleh Femi Adi Soempeno

3.Paket Prosa
oleh Dewi Lestari, Dinar Rahayu, Djenar Maesa Ayu, Fira basuki, Herlinatieng, dkk

4.Perjalanan Seorang Prajurit Para Komando
Sintong Panjaitan
oleh Hendro Subroto

5.Bahasa Melayu Bahasa Dunia
oleh James T. Collins

6.Prosa 4: Yang Jelita Yang Cerita
oleh Dewi Lestari, Dinar Rahayu, Djenar Maesa Ayu, Fira basuki, Herlinatieng, dkk

7.Astral Astria
oleh Fira Basuki

8.Mereka Mengkhianati Saya
oleh Femi Adi Soempeno

9.Shit Happens: Gue Yang Ogah Kawin Kok Elo Yang Rese?!
oleh Christian simamora & Windy Ariestanty

10.A Bridge Of Birds
Perang Vietnam, Cinta, dan Jalinan Antar-generasi Prancis
oleh Antoine Audouard

11.ASIA MENGUASAI DUNIA
oleh Stewart Gordon

12.Eleven Minutes
oleh Paulo Coelho

13.The Zahir: A Novel of Obsession
oleh  Paulo Coelho

14.Seri Gajah Mada V: Madakaripura Hamukti Moksa (SC)
oleh Langit Kresna Hariadi

15.Seri Gajah Mada I: Gajah Mada (HC)
oleh Langit Kresna Hariadi

16.Seri Gajah Mada II: Bergelut dalam Kemelut Takhta dan Angkara (HC)
oleh Langit Kresna Hariadi

17.Seri Gajah Mada III: Hamukti Palapa (HC)
oleh Langit Kresna Hariadi

18.Dyah Pitaloka
oleh Hermawan Aksan

19.Pitaloka: Cahaya 
oleh Tasaro

20.Samita
Sepak Terjang Hui Sing Murid Perempuan Cheng Ho
oleh Tasaro

21.Anak Semua Bangsa
oleh Pramoedya Ananta Toer

22.Bumi Manusia
oleh Pramoedya Ananta Toer

23.Hikayat Siti Mariah
oleh Pramoedya Ananta Toer

24.Larasati
oleh Pramoedya Ananta Toer

25.Midah si Manis Bergigi Emas
oleh Pramoedya Ananta Toer

26.Rumah Kaca
oleh Pramoedya Ananta Toer

27.Sekali Peristiwa di Banten Selatan
oleh Pramoedya Ananta Toer

28.Tikus dan Manusia
oleh Pramoedya Ananta Toer
5

29.Prosa 2: Oposisi, Seks, Amerika
oleh Pramoedya Ananta Toer, Putu Wijaya, Nukila Amal, Keith Foulcher, Carlos Fuentes, Utuy Tatang Sontani

wiken story

2009-03-23T12:56:00.003+07:00

so, watts yr wiken story?

08129xxxxxx, jiwa advonturir yang terperangkap dalam tubuh ibu RT:
Hey, met wiken. Gw lagi belajar masak neh.

08573xxxxxx, a party lover yang ga ada matinye:
Lagi bantuin temen launching graden clubnya. Ada live music, barbeque, beer, arak, wine. Kayanya bakalan seru. Psssttt.... kemaren, gw dicium lama sama pacar temen gw. Hari ini ketemu lagi, tapi ga dibahas. Gw rasa she was drunk yesterday kekekeke.

08129xxxxxx, pengusaha sapi yang lagi sepi pasaran:
Ga ngapa2in gw, di rumah aja. Maen poker di FB.

0813xxxxxx, obsesi jadi budayawan sekarang lagi nyamar jadi researcher:
Take a rest at home. Lu ke mana hari ini?

08139xxxxxx, kontraktor dengan hobi (bikin sirik orang) jalan-jalan gratisan:
Gw ke Toraja dong. Lu pasti sirik kan? Eh, jangan sirik dulu. Liat photo2 gw di FB besok, nah lu baru boleh sirik deh. Ralat: boleh sirik banget! Secara lu batal kan ke Toraja? hahahahaha
>> damn... dan gw pun dengan nurutnya... sirik

0818xxxxxx, ngaku-ngaku scientist tapi terobsesi jadi penari striptease:
Like usual. Cuci pakaian seminggu, ngepel rumah, masak & sekarang browsing2 aja.
>> Hmm.... mungkin lu kudu tinjau ulang obsesi lu, mending jadi housekeeper deh kekekeke

xx1616xxxxxx, penyiar radio rusak yang lagi skola gratis:
Lagi latian "menyonyo" (menyanyi, pen), untuk fund raising.

08129xxxxxx, pecinta wanita:
At home: bebersih rumah & kerja kerjaan kantor

0816xxxxxx, pemerhati anak2, pengamat sosial dan pecinta GRATISan:
Fun, just arrived from cottage with the kids

0813xxxxxx, another kontraktor, didikan Jepang. Hobi rodi & romusha:
Gw ga enak badan cyn. Keasikan ngerodi n lupa istirahat. Gw di Bandung sekarang, ada proyek baru. Di sini hujan mulu, jadi inget elu hahahaha

So watts yr wiken story?
Feel free to submit it to me.
Ketik REG spasi WIKENSTORY and send it to 081xxxxxxxx ha-ha

Happy belated wiken pals, now back to reality!
Yuk.......mari!

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2009-03-19T18:07:00.003+07:00

sepertinya sudah lama ga posting yang ringan-ringan
bukan berarti postingan selama ini berat
teutep... posting hal-hal yang ga penting
ah penting ga penting kan relatif... hehehehe
cuman kok ga ada lucu-lucunya

apa memang hidup juga lagi ga lucu ya?
yuk mari.......

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2009-03-18T15:24:00.003+07:00

it's 34 degree outside

and am fine inside

how's that sound?

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to avoid and being avoided

2009-03-16T12:45:00.004+07:00

Much talking is the cause of danger. Silence is the means of avoiding misfortune. The talkative parrot is shut up in a cage. Other birds, without speech, fly freely about.”

--Saskya Pandita

have you meet the person who can see perforate your soul?

who can make you talk about the darkest and brightest side of your journey, at the same time?

a kind of person who doesn't talk much thru tounge but thru eyes

is that kind of person really exist?

if so

perhaps it's better not to avoid that kind of person

since it can see you perforate your soul, tortured you with an increasing demand to speak even more

boudaries were created for some reasons

and even though we are social living creatures, we do have grey-black-green-red area

the area which can only be entered by ourselves

and mysteries are best to be kept

just the way they are

at some point, it is better to walk alone

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2009-03-12T17:26:00.003+07:00

It takes two to speak the truth — one to speak and another to hear.

--Thoreau

for those.......

who can make other saying the truth

to pull out (almost) the deepest secret inside them

and to hear in silence... at once

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still about maybe.. dan senja

2009-03-03T23:37:00.000+07:00

“Maybe mistakes are what make our fate...without them what would shape our lives? Maybe if we had never veered off course we wouldn't fall in love, have babies, or be who we are.
After all, things change, so do cities, people come into your life and they go. But it's comforting to know that the ones you love are always in your heart... and if you're very lucky, a plane ride away”
--Sex and the city

untuk senja, yang memulas langit sore menjadi begitu indah
menorehkan warna kemerahan bak lukisan
meneteskan kesejukan yang mendinginkan bara
tanpa membuatnya padam

mengisi kekosongan yang sengaja disisakan
membungkus semua ilusi yang terkadang menjadi inspirasi

senja.......
yang indah dan selalu ada
tanpa harus bertanya...
mengapa
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young-fun, grow-up?

2009-03-01T00:39:00.001+07:00

“When you're young, your whole life is about the pursuit of fun. Then, you grow up and learn to be cautious. You could break a bone or a heart. You look before you leap and sometimes you don't leap at all because there's not always someone there to catch you. And in life, there's no safety net. When did it stop being fun and start being scary?”
--Sex and the city

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About Maybe

2009-02-28T00:46:00.005+07:00

“Maybe some women aren't meant to be tamed.
Maybe they just need to run free til they find someone just as wild to run with them.

Maybe all men are a drug. Sometimes they bring you down and sometimes, like now, they get you so high.

But the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you can find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just fabulous.”
--Sex and the City

and it's all about MAYBE, the thing you have to deal,
in life
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again

2009-02-27T23:34:00.004+07:00

another insomnia attack

too many things in my mind

just another-my-repetitive-phase
a foolish one
why again
why me
why now

it's not that i cannot control the flows
i just choose not to

so wait till it pass then

when?
que serra serra
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illusion

2009-02-26T23:11:00.000+07:00

"we're born alone, we live alone, we die alone. Only through our love and friendship can we create the illusion for the moment that we're not alone."
-- Orson Welles

it's just an illusion, so live with it, learn to deal with it
sometimes it feels so real
but then again,
the nature of it cannot be changed

at least, not now
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funny things

2009-02-25T22:51:00.001+07:00

surprises and funny things happen in life
and when i remember them, i start to smile

even though am not a big fan of surprises,
now i smile when i see a black chocolate
anytime, anywhere

like i said, surprise can be fun
and it makes me smile

JUST.......thanks

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spirit

2009-02-17T20:49:00.003+07:00

We are not human beings on a spiritual journey. We are spiritual beings on a human journey."
>> Stephen R. Covey

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reminded by the sims 2

2009-02-14T17:32:00.004+07:00

waktu maen the sims2, kita kaya diperbudak sama si sim
dengan kebutuhan-kebutuhan dia yang kudu dipenuhi

bladder, hunger, hygiene, comfort, fun, energy, sosial
kalo ga dipenuhi dia bisa marah-marah n lebi parah..
bisa mati si sim kita

so i open the season for socialization
since that was the last thing in my mind
for the last sixty days

we live and learn, don't we?
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2009-02-13T16:41:00.003+07:00

don't judge me by the color, confuse it for another

You might regret what you let slip away

-Geek In The Pink, JMraz

and it so true

especially for sweet-mama-looking boy who happens to be a naughty one

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rapi?

2009-02-11T23:39:00.003+07:00

di tengah kehebohan dan usaha buat dapetin tiket mas Jason di hari Sabtu. ternyata masih ada juga loh kolega (kita sebut saja sikol) yang perhatian sama gw.
(paragraf atas dan bawah itu jebakan, sengaja ga nyambung)

sikol: tumben rapi amat pake bajunya
gw: iya.. dari kemaren-kemaren
sebelahnya sikol: iya nih, dari kemaren..... kayanya sedang jatuh cinta
gw:hahahahaha (langsung masuk angin karna kelamaan nganga n ketawa)

temans, teori itu agak berlaku umum ya?
tapi sayangnya tidak berlaku buat gw
sekali lagi TIDAK berlaku buat gw!

kalo gw rapi dan tumben-tumbenan gaya dalam berfashion
alasan yang paling logis itu... gw belum nyuci berbulan-bulan

dan itu juga alasannya sekarang
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mengapa oh WHY

2009-02-10T22:34:00.003+07:00

sedang senang bertanya mengapa alias WHY oh WHY
mengapa tertimbun lagi dan lagi dengan si loads
dari dulu kok ga belajar-belajar buat lempeng dengan loads.
kesannya gw cinta mati plus setia gitu ama si loads.

saking cintanya, jarang cek imel pribadi
WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY? membukanya saja saya sulit
trus jarang mantengin jadwal JJF
dan sekarang bengong....

WHY? karna ternyata mas Jason manggung juga di hari Sabtu
anjrriiiiiiiiiiiiiiitttttttttttttt gw bela-belain nonton Jumat, karena tadinya doi cuma manggung di Jumat

Sekarang mati-matian nyari tukeran tiket special show Sabtu
empat tiket doang (banyak ya)

ada yg punya?

kalo engga...
WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

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2009-01-14T22:02:00.001+07:00

Well it kind of hurts

when the kind of words you write

Kind of turn themselves into knives

And don't mind my nerve you could call it fiction

But I like being submerged in your contradictions dear

'Cause here we are, here we are

-- A Beautiful Mess, Jason Mraz-

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2009-01-10T01:03:00.001+07:00

manquer la chose volant

bien que la lune n'est pas belle comme il a utilisé aussi

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back to books

2008-12-30T12:06:00.004+07:00

setelah dua bulan tidak baca buku, hey.. am a serial movie junkie remember? akhirnya kangen juga

jadi mulai membuka-kemudian-membaca, secara random
could be fun

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Grey's Anatomy Character

2008-12-29T14:42:00.005+07:00

The quiz result says that am Yang!

That's not 100% TRUE of course.
The fact that am writing this down and care is a proof!

Am the mix of C. Yang, M. Grey and M. Bailey. Maybe 55-35-10.

I don't always have an excellent memory, clearly not in the past three years. And if I can choose, am not get along with people like Stevens

I like A.M Shepphed, the she-Shepperd
she's too good to be true, smart, classy, rich, full of experience. But still, winning a battle is nothing when we were loosing the war.

Maybe I'll hit the quiz one more time
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Another season

2008-12-26T14:22:00.002+07:00

"Christmas makes you want to be with people you love"
>> Grey's Anatomy

And so this is Christmas, and what have you done?
Do you choose with the people you love or doing things you love?

Anyway, Christmas is Christmas
It's a season greetings and a moment to smile more, and angry less

Have yourself a wonderful Christmas
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